I’m at work…thinking back on a few hours that have just passed me by…& I’m stuck…unfortunately…
Contemplating on if I should even take this leap…even put myself back into a doomed situation…because although it feels good now…later might prove otherwise…
So I formulated this question:
IS IT POSSIBLE TO MEET A PERFECT GENTLEMAN?
Being that I make bad relationship decisions…I stick with the answer….”I’m still waiting.”
& it’s that optimism about me that scares me…
Because I honestly don’t want to get involved in another relationship…but if I meet the “perfect” guy for me…what should I do? Do I let him pass me by?
I’m far from perfect…& I can honestly admit that…looking back on my past, failed relationships…I decided to form a list…of both my attributes & my flaws…& although my list of good qualities are more fulfilling than my bad…it always seems like the bad outweighs the good…& it has hindered the relationship
& this is by no means an admittance of the relationship going south…cuz in all actuality I feel this to be the exact opposite…
*i’m a lover…
*i’m a perfectionist…& tht could possibly be a gift & a curse…
*I’m very organized…
*I like a clean house…
*Im independent…yet I understand the value of a dollar…& by no means will I turn any guy down that is trying to do for me…thts y God made men…last time I checked…
*I can cook…not ur grandma’s thanksgiving dinner…but I can do a little sumthin sumthin…
*I honestly give the best massages…back…& hands…I will have a guy going crazy…
*I’m not dumb by a long shot…nor am I stupid or ignorant…I can comprehend very well…so when a nigga trying to subtract me out of his life & add the next bitch tht he’s already multiplied with…I understand fully tht we are now divided.
*I’m a well-rounded female…I honestly know how to take care of a man (key word:MAN)…physically, mentally, emotionally, & spiritually…
& now…THE FLAWS…
*i'm a bitch...pure, plain, & simple...
-love it or hate it...it is wht it is...i can be ur worst nightmare...
*i tend to fall too easily...& love too eff'n hard...
-thts unfortunate...esp. whn the other person does not reciprocate tht same emotion...actions speak louder than words...
*i'm a liar...
-do u need a definiton? seriously?
*i'm scarred from my past...
-i've been thru a lot...& i'm not afraid of where i'm going...i'm scared as shit of where i came from...
*i need attention...constantly...
-tht sux doesnt it?
*i can lock myself away for days...
-got this gothic type of thing going on...
*i'm bipolar...
-so i might need just a bit of medical help...cuz i can jump from loving u to hating u in .298 seconds
*i'm too needy & a nagger...therefore i complain too much...
-i want what i wnt whn i wnt it...pure, plain & simple...
*i ask to be treated like a queen..not a servant...
-females go for men like their father...he treated me like a princess...but i'm not a little girl anymore i need a man thts willing to treat me like the queen i've grown to be...
*u will never know all of me...
-ppl change constantly...so do i
*I have serious trust issues…
-doesn’t every1?
*i'm unstable...
-my future is on the tip of my tongue...i just cnt get it out...so i change it often...
i'm perfectly imperfect...& if i can find a man tht can love all of my flaws just as much as he loves all of my attributes...then i might be willing to give love a 5th chance & go for the platinum...lol...cuz a bish is growing out of tht 'broke nigga' stage...
Contemplating on if I should even take this leap…even put myself back into a doomed situation…because although it feels good now…later might prove otherwise…
So I formulated this question:
IS IT POSSIBLE TO MEET A PERFECT GENTLEMAN?
Being that I make bad relationship decisions…I stick with the answer….”I’m still waiting.”
& it’s that optimism about me that scares me…
Because I honestly don’t want to get involved in another relationship…but if I meet the “perfect” guy for me…what should I do? Do I let him pass me by?
I’m far from perfect…& I can honestly admit that…looking back on my past, failed relationships…I decided to form a list…of both my attributes & my flaws…& although my list of good qualities are more fulfilling than my bad…it always seems like the bad outweighs the good…& it has hindered the relationship
& this is by no means an admittance of the relationship going south…cuz in all actuality I feel this to be the exact opposite…
*i’m a lover…
*i’m a perfectionist…& tht could possibly be a gift & a curse…
*I’m very organized…
*I like a clean house…
*Im independent…yet I understand the value of a dollar…& by no means will I turn any guy down that is trying to do for me…thts y God made men…last time I checked…
*I can cook…not ur grandma’s thanksgiving dinner…but I can do a little sumthin sumthin…
*I honestly give the best massages…back…& hands…I will have a guy going crazy…
*I’m not dumb by a long shot…nor am I stupid or ignorant…I can comprehend very well…so when a nigga trying to subtract me out of his life & add the next bitch tht he’s already multiplied with…I understand fully tht we are now divided.
*I’m a well-rounded female…I honestly know how to take care of a man (key word:MAN)…physically, mentally, emotionally, & spiritually…
& now…THE FLAWS…
*i'm a bitch...pure, plain, & simple...
-love it or hate it...it is wht it is...i can be ur worst nightmare...
*i tend to fall too easily...& love too eff'n hard...
-thts unfortunate...esp. whn the other person does not reciprocate tht same emotion...actions speak louder than words...
*i'm a liar...
-do u need a definiton? seriously?
*i'm scarred from my past...
-i've been thru a lot...& i'm not afraid of where i'm going...i'm scared as shit of where i came from...
*i need attention...constantly...
-tht sux doesnt it?
*i can lock myself away for days...
-got this gothic type of thing going on...
*i'm bipolar...
-so i might need just a bit of medical help...cuz i can jump from loving u to hating u in .298 seconds
*i'm too needy & a nagger...therefore i complain too much...
-i want what i wnt whn i wnt it...pure, plain & simple...
*i ask to be treated like a queen..not a servant...
-females go for men like their father...he treated me like a princess...but i'm not a little girl anymore i need a man thts willing to treat me like the queen i've grown to be...
*u will never know all of me...
-ppl change constantly...so do i
*I have serious trust issues…
-doesn’t every1?
*i'm unstable...
-my future is on the tip of my tongue...i just cnt get it out...so i change it often...
i'm perfectly imperfect...& if i can find a man tht can love all of my flaws just as much as he loves all of my attributes...then i might be willing to give love a 5th chance & go for the platinum...lol...cuz a bish is growing out of tht 'broke nigga' stage...
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