Ugh...LOVE...

I find myself constantly fighting the urge to love... Anyone...at anytime...just random love...i hate being alone, yet the past few relationships I have been in, have been, well let's just say, not worth it...
i know that i don't need a man to make me feel secure & all that other crap...but coming home from a long day & just being loved is a good ass feeling...& i do feel that way...EVERY single day when i'm with my son...but the type of love we have is undeniable...& inevitable...so unconditional love between us will NEVER fail...yet i long for love from someone who doesn't share the same bloodline as mine...someone from the opposite sex that's willing to wholeheartedly go into this thing call love with me...
i want the feeling of jumping out of an airplane w/ no parachute...
that's that real love feeling...
but i've had this conversation with myself over & over again...& i'm content with being single for the rest of my life...although i'm young...i've had some experiences with this thing called love...& the bad outweighs the good...but the good feels so damn good...that i constantly yearn for more...even when at the beginning there's this big red DISCLAIMER: HEY, REMEMBER THAT LAST HEARTBREAK? YOU SURE YOU WANT TO DO THIS AGAIN?
why do i continue to go back? but they say, 'it's better to have loved & haved lost, than to not have loved at all'
so we'll see what the future holds for me...
_so...shy_